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My favorite movies are love stories. I know a lot of people don’t like the mushy stuff, but I love him. I love a movie that has emotion in it. A movie doesn’t have to focus on just romance though. It can be action-romance or comedy-romance, but it just has to have some kind of emotion in it. Sometimes even tragedy movies get me, like all those asian flicks where someone always dies. I like having a connection with the character and seeing their life and how the live it. Seeing their struggles in life always makes me think what I would do in the same situation. I do watch horror films but I don’t get into them. I find them too scary and gory. A movie can’t just be about blood and guts unless it was to protect someone. The movies about revenge are interesting but they wouldn’t be in my favorite catergory. Comedy is also okay, but I dont like the comedies that are too crude in language. When they’re too crude it starts to really irritate me. Family films are also fun to watch. They always seem to have a touching story. Most of the Disney films are pretty good. Pixar and Dreamworks are good too. Suspense films are kinda cool. They really have you jump out of your seat sometimes. Of course if the suspense is too long it can get boring. I can probably pick a favorite movie out of each of these catergories except horror. But with all the movies coming out, my favorites will probably change , mostly because I can’t really remember all the movies I”ve seen back then.

Beneath blue sky, she glides slowly,

Next to fushia flowers, she dances peacefully,

Aquamarine clothes, turquoise scrunchy,

Under sun, he looks majestic,

Next to shiny car, he writes rhymes,

Masculine clothes, expensive guns,

Planets rotate, send signs,

Magic gathers, washes over minds,

She glances seemingly,

He looks endlessly,

Pure, sexy, beautiful,

Rich, intelligent, aggressive,

She leans over,

He slips ring over.

I never thought about blogging. There was a time when I was young that I thought of keeping a diary but I stopped after several days. It was mainly a reason to practice my cursive. My days got so boring and seemed like a routine so  I stopped recording them.Years later when I was in the hospital I thought of starting it up again but had no paper. When I got out of the hospital I went back to the same old routine so never picked it up again. Starting on this blog made me look at my life and realize that my life wasn’t as boring as I thought.  I’ve had lots of fun as a child and when growing  up . Now the memories that I thought didn’t matter, I realize how I never want to forget them. Those memories and my experiences is what makes me who I am. The times with my sisters and watching my little brother grow up . The games we played, the shows we watched, the books we read. They all come back to me. Now I’m making so many more memories I never want to forget, like all the friends I’ve made and meeting my boyfriend. Even the hard times I wouldn’t want to forget. It was through those struggles that my life grew on. To not have exprerience hardship you can say I haven’t lived at all . Blogging is yet another experience. I don’t know if I will keep it up though. Maybe if I got something interesting to say or need to express  myself. I guess it can be a new stress reliever.

When I was young, my creative side started, like most kids, with drawing with crayons and markers. It progressed to paint. I felt discouraged in my drawings though when I saw all the wonderful artwork out in the world. Without encouragement, I stopped being creative for many years. I started reading many more books. My older sister then got me started on writing poems. I wrote several little poems. I didn’t think they were great when comparing them to my sister’s. My sister encouraged me to continue because she said they were cute. I then made several longer poems. Me and my sister even made verses for our hand-made cards for our parents. I even made a card all on my own for my sister. My sister then got into story writing and encouraged me to do the same. I really didn’t think I would be any good. My sister was writing a story for a cartoon, so I wanted to do the same. We wrote in episodes. My sister headed to college and she stopped. Me with my medical condition went to the hospital and I also stopped. When I got back, it took me awhile before I got started again. Without my sister I didn’t feel very enthusiastic anymore. I decided to start on another story. I completely stopped when preparing for college. I always felt like I wanted to finish the stories, but didn’t really feel the story in me anymore. Still, I would like to get back to it when I have free time. Sometimes when I read over what I have already written I feel the spark again. In time I will finish the stories and that part of me will be complete. Of course until my next spark.

When I look back on all the years I have dealt with stress, I really only have one way of dealing with it. With my personality of keeping all thoughts and feelings to myself, I would have thought that I would deal with stress by maybe expressing myself in a diary or journal, anything more private. But I don’t. The way I deal with stress is talking about it. I need an outlet. I would talk with my sisters. If I can’t talk with them, I would talk with my friends or my boyfriend. Other times when I can’t talk with my sisters and I can’t get hold of my friends or my boyfriend, I would try to just push it off and ignore it. This method of course doesn’t work for long, though I have dealt with a lot things this way. Sometimes taking a nap helps unless of course you’re too stressed to take a nap. But that was never a problem for me. I have heard of meditation but I would never be able to clear all my thoughts. I have also heard that listening to music could help you de-stress. Listening to music does help me relax and forget about my problems but I don’t use this method often. So my solution to relieve stress is to find someone to talk to, someone that will help you relax. Without stress relievers everyone would most likely explode, so everyone has to find something that works for them. My method has worked for me so far so I’m sticking to it.

I have never assessed myself because I just live day by day. To assess how I changed this year, I would have to begin last year. Last year, I felt like my life had just begun when I enrolled into college. There I met my first boyfriend. We went out occasionally because we both had school. After school semester, I thought things would get better. I knew where he lived and was able to drive myself over. I would visit at least twice a week. My personality changed slowly when I fell in love with his mother and all her baking and when realizing my interest, I started baking myself. Next year, my relationship with my boyfriend went downhill. He finally decided to break up with me before Valentine’s Day, but said we could still be friends. I was devastated, but accepted friendship. The new semester started and I had studies so I didn’t bother him much.  I met my next boyfriend and was uplifted and promised myself I wouldn’t be the same as I was in my first relationship. I ended up resorting to my old ways anyways, but he said he loved me and that he loved spending time with me. Later on, my ex-boyfriend decided he didn’t want to be friends anymore. I was disappointed and frustrated with him, but decided to let it go because I a was already in a great relationship. I don’t know whether I have become stronger, but I can tolerate many things. I don’t think I have regressed; in fact, I believe my life has gotten better. I wanted my first relationship to be a long-standing one, but I guess fate decided my first relationship wasn’t meant to be. Now, I feel I’m in  real relationship because I feel we both feel the same way about each other. During the last four months, I have slightly changed my personality from being shy and reserved to more open-minded and outgoing. I have made more friends and I’m moving forward step-by-step.

I came across a blog that interested me because it contained a poem. I love poems, especially when they rhyme. This poem didn’t exactly rhyme but it caught my attention. Her name is Jackie and her blogs are kinda old, nevertheless I chose the blog titled I Am. It contained all the things of what she is. She seems like a wonderful person, especially when you read her whole page. I thought the poem was really deep. I felt a connection with the poem. It made me think of who I am and what I could be. For some reason this poem filled me with so much emotion I probably could’ve cried. It tuned me in to what I think of myself. I don’t normally think of myself too often. I tend to think of other people and who they are and how they feel. The poem  didn’t describe a perfect person wich made it more real to me. Instead it described an  imperfect person and all the things we are. It described all the things that I believe everyone has gone through at some point in their life. This poem is also kinda funny because it has meny contradictions. It’s like one person can be everything When it comes to describing who people are, it can be confusing couldn’t it? No one is clear-cut. People are complex and hard to define. It mades me think that no two people are alike even if they go through the same situations. This poem makes me feel like I can grasp what people go though in life whether it be the sad moments or the happy moments. I would very much like to meet up with Jackie to see if she is all the things that were listed in the poem.

I flipped through the blogs of my fellow classmates, but only the few in which I could connect faces with. I opened Connor’s, Chelsea’s, Vy’s, Lisa’s, and Patrick’s. I have opened my group’s blogs before but did not take any interest. Looking through these blogs, I finally chose Chelsea’s. Her blogs were cute, girly, and passionate. I cannot pick just one of her blogs but if I had to pick one I would pick her “If Only…” blog because I can understand her situation and can sorta relate. She talks about her first boyfriend in high school and about disappointments and broken promises. I can feel for her because of what i went through in my first relationship, where tings seem to be going just fine and then you experience a disappointment. Chelsea talks about how honesty should be the basis of a relationship and that her boyfriend wasn’t always honest. With my first boyfriend, I don’t know if we had an honesty issue. He would just tell me he couldn’t put what he thought or felt into words. Chelsea also talked about holding in feelings until she just exploded and it cost her her relationship but she knew it was for the best. With my first boyfriend, I also kept letting things go and dealt with the disappointments. I kept all my feelings bottled up that finally when we just became friends, I cursed at him. I immediately regretted my actions and tried to apologize but I knew it wasn’t going to work. But now I have another boyfriend who cares for me and I’m happy just to be with him. Also, I hope Chelsea will find that someone to make her feel like a “princess.” I have spoken to her once in class and she seems like a really nice person. I believe it is a good possibility that we could become great friends.

The movie that wa chosen for me to watch was Driving Miss Daisy. At first I was a it skeptical even though it won an Academy Award. I think it was because the title didn’t sound all that interesting, but with Morgan Freeman, I figured I would give the film a chance. I found the movie in the Drama section of Blockbuster so expected some drama. It started off with Miss Daisy backing out her car and crashing into the neighbor’s yard. I found this scene funny and it definitely explains the title of the movie. I found Miss Daisy a very stubborn and independent woman. I respected her character up to a point. She insisted she didn’t need a chauffeur and wanted to take the trolley instead. I was glad when she finally decided to let Hoke drive her around. Hoke was a nice fellow and very gentlemanly. He liked to get along with everybody, while on the other hand, Miss Daisy was all about the people around her getting work done. When Miss Daisy’s housekeeper died, she turned more to Hoke for companionship. I felt a growing friendship. I sensed it earlier in the movie, but felt the bond grow stronger as the movie progressed. I liked that no matter what the situation, there was always complete honesty between them and they could say whatever they thought or felt. In the end, when Miss Daisy was put in a nursing home, I felt compassion for her. Hoke came to visit and  I liked how the ending indicated that he would always be there for her.

I can only fit 80 songs on my mp3 player, so I switch songs occasionally, mostly to more recent songs. If I remember an old song that I liked, I would end up putting it back on my playlist. There are more recent songs I would like to add, but  I have not gotten to it.

Opening Credit: I’m Yours – Jason Mraz: this is a cute song. I think of when me and my boyfriend are together holding on to each other.

Waking up: Gimme More – Britney Spears: It makes me think of how I want the most out of life.

First Day of School: Love Song – Sara Bareilles: It makes me think of how I want more people to interact with.

Falling in Love: Umbrella – Rihanna: Makes me think about my relationship and how we will always be there for each other.

Fight Song: Unfaithful – Rihanna: How you have to do unpleasant things to do what makes you happy.

Breaking Up: If You Seek Amy - Britney Spears: Makes me think of the pary after the break up. Like after me and my ex-boyfriend broke up, I wanted to go out more.

Prom: Trouble – Britney Spears: I’ve never been to prom but if I could dance I would dance the night away. I would never get myself in a sticky situation though.

Life: Mannequin – Britney Spears: I don’t know the lyrics so I can’t really comment.

Mental Breakdown: Don’t Let Me Stop You – Kelly Clarkson: How I let everyone do what they want even when I feel like I need them.

Driving: Helpless When She Smiles – Backstreet Boys: I think of all the things that make me smile like my boyfriend and how my boyfriend always smiles when he’s with me.

Flashback: All Around Me – Flyleaf: I think of all the pleasant memories of me and my boyfriend and how I want him near me whenever possible.

Wedding: Tonight and the Rest of My Life – Nina Gordan: When me and my boyfriend are together and I just want time to stand still and remember that moment.

Birth of Child: Out From Under – Britney Spears: I think of break-ups and the pain and how I tried to make it work.

Final Battle: 4 minutes – Madonna & Justin Timberlake: How you only have a limited of time to get so far and you have to make the most of the time you have.

Death Scene: Whyyawannabringmedown – Kelly Clarkson: Fighting through the struggles to get through life.

Funeral Song: Keep Holding On – Avril Lavigne: To keep going strong until the end together(me and my boyfriend).

End Credits: Heartbreaker – Pat Benatar: I think of how me and my ex-boyfriend broke up and hope that my current relationship lasts until the end.